So, it was finally done. we finally met and decided to separate. we talked mostly in the car. which is good, because when he told me he couldn't bear being hundred miles apart anymore, i cried. i cried so much and so hard (imagine being in a restaurant and crying like a baby-hysterical crying baby, people would lost their appetite and he would be seen as a terrible partner which he was not). i cried because i know how sucks he must have felt. and i cried not because i don't want to part with him, i cried because i know we need to. sometimes in order to gain some, you have to lose some. in this case, in order to grow our individual self more, we need to part. his life is there, hundred miles away from me. he's building his career, his cafe, his team are all there to focus on right now. you know.. it's not easy. he clearly needs someone who could be there physically to support, to motivate, to comfort, to tell him that everything is going to be okay and grabs his hand when he's drowning in troubles. i cried because i know it wasn't going to be me. because i have my own life, too. here. i still need to focus on my study. i need to focus on finding what i do best, what i want to do with my life. frankly, i don't mind having an ldr but this wasn't just about me, this is about us. and maybe, me being alone is what i need to step up. it was a very hard decision. but i prayed so much to God to hint me the best path we should take, and... i don't know, it's like God's is telling me to just let it go. it's like somehow i was convinced. and i still feel it is the best decision, even though i'm still devastated. "what's best for you does not always mean it'll be the prettiest." i'd remember him as a very fun experience and memory because i love the good and the bad out of it. it opened my eyes to a whole new perspective. it changed the way i'm thinking in certain way. it made me learn so many important things i need in life; loving, understanding, compromising, and patience. now, we just need to move forward in our own pace and enjoy our own life. Goodbye & Thank you, bul.