this is a random stuff but i just gotta write it down here because i dont have guts to say it directly.

so...

i feel like i'm not used to this. well, at least, yet. i'm not used to this yet. i'm not yet getting used to be the childish little byach in a relationship, i mean. like i have never in this role before so i dont know how to react and what to expect.

but, anyway, ok you can cross that little byach thing -_-

move on -- frankly, i used to be the reliable one in relationship, so it's kinda new to me to have someone who's more grown up. i know what you think.. it sounds like i am playing character instead of being myself, right? well, i just realize that here, too lol

even so, i think everybody's doing it. depends on what kind of partner they are getting involved with. well, you gotta keep a relationship on its balance y'know? it can't have two stubborn-ass with big ego at the same time. if they were getting into a fight, who's gonna apologize? no one. because they are taken by their big ego and no one wants to take the blame just for the sake of their relationship. because they are two stubborn-ass. so yeah, that would end well. *sarcastic, guys? in case you didnt notice-_-*

thus, i am playing as the irresponsible one, i guess? and the always-being-corrected one. oh, and also the always-speechless one. eurgh -_- not that those are wrong but it kinda is 'tickling' my ego a little bit.